According to Wikipedia;

Phlegm (pronounced /’flem/) is sticky fluid secreted by the mucous membranes of humans and other animals. Its definition is limited to the mucus produced by the respiratory system, excluding that from the nasal passages, and particularly that which is expelled by coughing (sputum).

Whatever it is, I hate them.

Phlegm caused my dear baby to cough and vomit all his milk out. Not just once. But, every time she was feed.

Phlegm caused me to clean the mess again and again. Wiping the sticky stuff from her clothing, the floor, the baby cot, our bed, the carpet.

Changing her cloth. Cleaning the little princess body, face and hair. And, of course cleaning myself.

The ritual when the phlegm strikes:

Feed. Cough. Vomit. Clean the mess. Clean the baby. Change her cloth. Clean myself. Change my cloth. Feed again. Cough again. Vomit again.

Phlegm cause my dear baby to be hospitalised for 7 days.

My baby was admitted in Selangor Medical Center from 24th - 30th Dec ‘08. So did her mama (read:me).

I was still recuperating from the miscarriage then.

It was tough for a sick mama to look after a sick baby. And, it was boring like crazy staying in the hospital.

The single room (RM190 per day), was way too below expectation. I mean furniture & fitting wise.

There was some kind of green algae around the aircond vent. And, the almost detach ceiling. Oeww.

The room looked old. And, smell old. I think 2nd class ward in Hospital Sungai Buloh is much (much) better.

But then, since the medical expenses are covered undered ING (hubby’s medical benefits), I shut my mouth.

As long as the medical services and the doctors are good, I will not complaint (much).

I use Celcom broadband for internet access at home. You know the one that use a sim card inserted inside a small USB modem?

So far it never turns me down. Surfing the internet was fast.

But, since yesterday it’s slower than a sloth. Damn slow.

Excuse me for cursing. But, it making me really mad.

I wonder why.

Is it because too many people are using it nowadays (causing congestion)?

Is it because it’s windy and stormy today (causing the broadband wave distorted)?

Is it because Celcom service is deteriorating (just like the economy)?

I have tons of things to blog about.

Oh.. please!

I have always being amazed with baby-wearing. Ever since baby Izzah was in my tummy.

And, the first baby-wearing gear that I bought was a beige-colored LittlePods (size M) from LittlePods.com.

But, I rarely used it.

The little princess didn’t like being in the pod. Perhaps she was not comfortable?

Another baby wearing gear was bought by my hubby. It has buckles on it’s straps.

Hubby used to like wearing little Izzah while shopping. Used to. Now that Izzah is bigger, the gear was not comfy to wear anymore.

I have tried the baby wearing gear before. And, my back hurts. The straps do not distribute the baby’ weight evenly.

When I came across a Mei Tai, I immediately fall in love!

Pictures of babies in close contact with their mothers in Mei Tai were so delightful.

The hand-made Mei Tai are also really cute. But, a Mei Tai is quite expensive. RM150 for a simple original Mei Tai. And, RM170 for a Buckle Tai (a Mei Tai with buckles).

There are a few savvy stay-at-home-moms who sell their hand-made Mei Tai in Malaysia. But, I choosed to buy from Snuggbaby.com.

Why? Because there are so many lovely choices of body panel pattern.

And, I really love my Mei Tai. It’s so comfortable to wear my baby in a Mei Tai!

12/12/2008 - Friday

First visit to Pusrawi Kota Damansara to confirm my pregnancy. I already done a few UPT tests at home. Now, I just want a gynae to confirm it by an ultrasound.

According to the gynae, I was 11 weeks pregnant. Ultrasound showed an empty sack. There’s no heartbeat. And, the sack measured 6 weeks only. Oh.. was my last menstruation date wrong? Was it too early to see a heartbeat?

The gynae asked to come again in 3 weeks.

13/12/2008 - Saturday

There was a little blood when I wiped. And, the color was brown. Old blood.

And, a sudden thought that I didn’t feel pregnant anymore. The thought made my heart leaps.

14/12/2008 - Sunday

I still had a little bleeding. Not much. Just like the last few days of a period. Brownish. And, only need a panty liner.

I was feeling uneasy about the bleeding. So, we went to Hospital Sungai Buloh emergency unit that night. I have my records there so the process was quick.

A gynae examined me. She said the same thing about the sack. There was no heartbeat. It’s empty.

And, she said I already miscarried. It is called a “missed miscarriage“.

Meaning, the foetus didn’t develop further after week 6. But, my body thought I was still pregnant. Thus, it didn’t end the pregnancy naturally.

The gynae gave me a week. To see whether I’ll have a natural miscarriage. Else, I’ll need a D&C (dilation & curettage).

16/12/2008 - Tuesday

That night, I started having contractions. Only 2-4 minutes apart. And, getting stronger.

The contractions started from my front to my lower back.

Just like giving birth!

I was fighting the pains while singing a lullaby to baby Izzah.

And, after Izzah slept… it happened. An extremely strong contraction and a heavy bleeding. With really big clots.

Each time a contraction ended, I bleed like crazy.

And, I know I have lost my baby in my tummy.

The contractions were so strong that I need to take painkillers to sleep.

17/12/2008 - Wednesday

I only slept for 3 hours when I was woken up again by strong contractions. And, I leaked.

The 35cm Sofy Body Fit pad was heavily soaked with blood.

My husband kept on asking whether I want to go to the hospital.

But, I said I’ll bear it until morning. I didn’t want to disturb baby Izzah’s sleep. If we go to the hospital at the wee hours, the baby must go with us. She would get cranky then.

So, I fighted my pain until 7 am.

Luckily, I still remember the Hypnobirthing breathing techniques that I learned before Izzah was born. It helps a lot to ease the pain.

After sending baby Izzah to the day-care, we headed to Hospital Sungai Buloh.

And, surprisingly the sack is still there despite the heavy bleeding.

The gynae asked whether I’m sure with my last date of menstruation. I was so sure.

He then insert a speculum to check my cervic. Alas.. the sack was out. So, the miscarriage was completed. No D&C was needed.

I was asked to wait in the Dewan Bersalin for 4 hours before I could go home.

I was feeling extremely dizzy. Perhaps, due to the heavy loss of blood.

After 4 hours, another gynae checked on me.

And, he said the POC (product of conception) was still there!

OMG!

I was immediately warded for them to clean the remaining tissue in my uterus.

Oh.. I hate of being an hospital patient. I hate the process of inserting a needle for an IV drip on my vein. It hurts so much!

And the thought of being wheeled into an extremely cold operation room make me shivered.

An ERPOC (not D&C) was scheduled for me the next morning. This procedure uses vacuum to clean my womb while D&C uses a scrapper.

That explained why they say D&C is painful. Imagine somebody scrapping (kikis) your womb lining with an instrument. Oewww.

I couldn’t sleep that night.

18/12/2008 - Thursday

I was asked to changed into a white gown for operation.

And, a gynae had a final check on me before the ERPOC.

Guess what? She said I had a complete miscarriage. No need for ERPOC. And, I can go home!

I was discharged in the afternoon.

And, given 9 days MC.

Thanks to everyone who has left the thoughtful comments and sms’s. We will definitely try again!

Oh yes.. who said I can’t conceive without fertility treatments? This short pregnancy proved that miracle can happens!

Very sad news. My second baby has just gone to heaven. I just had a miscarriage last night. The pain was like giving birth!

And, since it is incomplete, I’m now warded for a D&C tomorrow (yes, I’m blogging from the ward on my handphone).

I was 11 weeks & 4 days pregnant. Sorry honey, adik is no longer with us. He’s gone before I can share my happiness of having him in my womb. Urgh, I heard D&C is more painful than giving birth?Aiya ya.

update: I’ll have ERPOC not D&C. ERPOC uses suction to clear the remaining tissue, while D&C uses scrapper. Oeww..